The conscious mind is your creative mind. It’s the one that has your personal identity, it does the real thinking, and then there’s your subconscious mind. The subconscious mind is equivalent to a tape player. It records behaviors and at a push of a button it plays behaviors, it’s automatic. It’s a very convenient thing because we don’t have to relearn all the time, once you know it you can make a pattern. The problem is the basic pattern of belief and behavior that are programed in the subconscious mind came from our teachers, primarily our parents, our family, and our community. The thing is people don’t even understand how easily we are influenced by our environment. Every person we encounter, every single situation that we are faced with, every little word that is said on television, may not seem too influential to our conscious mind, but your unconscious is designed to take in every information brought to you without your awareness. So the question is that are we leading conscious, or unconscious lives? Science tells us that only 5% of our lives is controlled by our conscious mind, and 95% of the time controlled by our subconscious, with other programs and feeling of other people we get from. We don’t realize that other countries, entire civilizations, that think they are free and independent, but are unconsciously too afraid to be free and independent, they will beg to be controlled and governed, and if they can’t do it themselves who do you think is going to consciously or unconsciously take control? It usually ends up that person who consciously want power and control.
When we think we are in danger we’re not looking for our mother to nurture us, we want our father to protect us, and right here in our age of civilization, this age of fear, we see masculine domination. One of the major factors that give us responsibility and giving our conscious energy away is money. We don’t want to admit that our dependency on money is flawed, but that would imply that the fault is our own, and god forbid we take responsibility for our lives, so we blame the money. This is all an illusion brought to us by the government, or higher power. Money is said to be the root of all evil, yet it cannot be evil because money is only a symbol. Symbols only carry the faith and spirit of the observer. So this means money evokes and surfaces the evil intentions of the observer. Money only exist because we agree for it to exist and accept it as valuable. There is no law that states that we have to use federal reserve notes as money, but we choose too because we fear the alternative, independence. Its not even about money, its the enegry put fourth for money. Money is this material thing that allows billions of people to crave one thing, and put their energy into this one thing. Its not the plasma tv or the house or the lifestyle or the job or the significant other or the status, its cause we know we are empty. These people know that they feel sadness and loneliness and void just like everybody else, and its either that they want to fill that void with materialism or it is just that they think it can make them feel better or they want to sedate the void feeling with material possession, so it all goes back to putting our feeling back in to dependency into an external source that we have absolutely have no control over. What we are seeing right now is all the competition of each other, killing each other, all of the wars, competing for material existence, all of the raping of the planet and tearing it apart to get some pieces of it to hold in your hand just to say you won the game, everyone of those moves is destructive, not just of the planet but of human civilization, because human civilization will thrive with cooperation and will die with competition, and if you operate off these truth then you end up with the extinction of the human civilization.
Well you see we all have demons, so to speak, we all have inner demons in our lives, but we expect to see devilish monsters when you think of a demon, kinda what you see in the movies, but our demons are really the people in our everyday lives, people that we argue with, the people that we envy or hate, the ones we want to physically or emotionally harm in some way shape or form, and its not because that we envy or hate certain qualities in these specific people, its cause they remind us of ourselves. They reflect qualities about ourselves that we wish we had more of or qualities that we wish we never had. So what do we do? We alleviate that pain, not by fixing or fighting our own demons, but by harming people the people that remind us of our demons, by harming the people that remind us of things we don’t like about ourselves. Then when we become frustrated that we are not in control of our emotions because we really don’t know whats effecting our emotions, we take it out on others or things that act as a catalyst for our hatred. So we do the same thing to animals. Animals are perfect because they can’t defend themselves. Its a perfect catalyst for our inner aggression, our confusion, our hatred, just take it out on something absolutely helpless. Just image how unconscious a person has to be of his/her actions that to torcher or mutilate or brutalize any living thing. Think of lack of compassion you must have towards life in general to feel no sympathy to whole populations, let alone just individuals, but I will tell you something even more dangerous, it’s not so much people carrying out this cruelty, because that has already been established, what I’m really worried about is the people who against inhumanity, the people who are against animal cruelty and that they feel self righteous enough that they think its justifiable to inflict harm or even wish harm on these people. Because those are the people who take unconscious cruel behavior to a whole new level of conscious cruel behavior that is perfectly acceptable in their minds, because they feel it’s their jobs to bring other people to justice, like they are an authority figure of some sort. Those are the people who will have a much harder time figuring out why they harbor so much inner hatred and resentment. They don’t seem to realize that it is another form of the same exact hatred, so to keep from facing our inner demons, consistently what do we do? when we began to realize, “hey, wait a minute, maybe its not alright to inflict harm on any other living thing” then the ego has to come up with more esoteric forms of cruelty to trick us into performing the same kind of self hatred, the same indigent attitude, in a different way to a another group of people, but the emptiness will always find its way back in, and people will always start to feel restless, and yet transfer blame to yet another group of people. We need chaos in our lives, we crave destruction, we beg for catastrophe, because if you don’t have these things to act as a form of exorcism, or a catalyst for us, we start to notice these things in our self, and that’s what we don’t want, you see, we can deal with wars, we can deal with terrorism, we can deal with stock market collapse and economic collapse, we can deal with these things, but once we start noticing these chaos within our selves, that’s what we are really afraid of. We’ll take a million September 11ths over one moment of true insight of towards our self hate.
